Tuesday, July 7, 2009

The Divine Exchange

In flipping through a book I haven’t picked up in awhile I found a small piece of paper with this scripture on it…1 John 4:16. I was intrigued. I wondered what that scripture said, so I opened up my bible.

Whenever I hear the name John, I usually think of the verse John 3:16, which says—“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life.” Here is what I found in 1 John 4:16—“And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.”

Then verse 18 says the following: “There is NO FEAR in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made in perfect love.”
In thinking about to the love God has for us…enough love to send His own Son as a living sacrifice for us…I’m reminded that this type of love represents a Divine Exchange, so to speak. This is the transfer of our own imperfections away from us and onto Christ. We’re called to trade in that which is old, our sins and faults, and exchange it for new life.

When we first become Christians, it’s easy to stay amazed by the newness and excitement of our faith. However, those feelings often fall away as life’s nasty twists and turns get in the way. Worries and fears come on the scene and then we lose heart and sometimes faith.

As most of you know, I don’t like fear. It’s not from God. The Word states that very clearly (2 Tim 1:7). Do we all have moments when fear might creep in gradually? Sure. It happens. But we can’t let it stick around. If we fall victim to fear, if we are afraid and give way to that anxiety, it shows that His love has not been perfected in us. I realize this may be hard to hear, but it’s true.

When cancer showed up in my life, I felt fear. I’m human. It would only have gotten worse had I stayed focused on that fear. Instead, I would make a conscience effort to take my eyes off of myself and look to Him. Fear can be resolved first and foremost by focusing on His immeasurable love for you. Not always easy to do, but as believers we have no choice. THIS is how we are able to STAY amazed by the Divine Exchange each day. Keep your focus on HIM! Worship Him! I love this from Rev. 4—“Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, who is and who is to come.” THAT is worship! Worship takes our eyes off our “humanness” and this world and puts our focus on God! There’s power in that.

There will be more about this nasty little four lettered word FEAR in the next few entries, so stay tuned.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Why Should I Trust the Bible?

Not long ago I heard someone say that “religion” or faith is what you need in THAT moment of time. In other words, not something you BUILD up...it just happens to be there when you need it. I cringed at these words. I honestly believe that had I waited until I NEEDED faith, to learn about it, to use it, to put it into action, I would be dead. Yes, that’s a strong statement, but I know in my heart that would be be the case.

Let me back track a bit for those of you who don’t know me or the journey I’ve been on the last few years. In July of 2006 I was told I had Acute Myelogenous Leukemia. I was also told, because of a crooked chromosome in my DNA, that I would need a stem cell transplant to save my life. I underwent a transplant on December 5 of 2006. My immune system is still growing, much like a baby’s immune system does. My close friends have graciously learned that if they even FEEL as if they are getting sick, they will stay clear of me, because of my immune system still being compromised. It’s a small price to pay for health.

Again, if faith is what you NEED in that moment in time, if I would have just then, in THAT moment when I heard I had cancer, started to learn about faith, I would have crumbled. Did I have some shock in hearing the word cancer? Sure. That is what makes us all human. But, had I allowed those feelings to hang around, for fear to rear its full, ugly head, I wouldn’t have made it through.

One scripture has continued to go through my mind recently during the night when I wake. John 10:10; “The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy…” When I woke up the first morning this scripture started coming to mind, I went to my bible and looked it up. You see, that is just the first part of John 10:10. The rest of the scripture says, “I have come that they may have life and have it to the fullest.” I wish there were an exclamation mark behind the word “fullest.” It’s such a big word and I’m not sure we realize it. Satan TAKES life, Jesus GIVES life. Satan brings bad. Jesus brings good.

Why do I trust God’s word? I trust God’s word because I am limited by my own out look, view or perspective. It was God’s word and God’s word alone that got me through. My faith has only grown because of the Word. The more I leaned into the Word, the more confident I was about who God is…who He WAS, who He will be again.

Romans 15:4 says it all: “For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and encouragement of the Scriptures, we might have hope. Do you want some hope? Who doesn’t? We all do, especially now, when so much of the world seems to be in turmoil. In all honesty, the only HOPE we have is in that of Jesus Christ.

Why trust the bible? Why trust God? Why believe in Jesus Christ? Proverbs 3:5 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”

According to that scripture, there are only two options:
1. Trust the Lord
2. Lean on yourself

Which one do you choose? The options are polar opposites. There is no middle ground. Either you trust Him or you don’t.

Those close to me know I've said this many times, even before cancer; you must start TRUSTING God now…with the little things, because when the bigger things come, you’ll be prepared, seasoned, and ready. By trusting AND believing, we have nothing to lose if we’re wrong. But not trusting and not believing…and being wrong, means you have everything to lose.

The next part of Proverbs 3 says, “in all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” He fulfilled that scripture in my life. He took a crooked chromosome, a crooked chromosome in my DNA that was trying to kill me with AML…and made it straight! My last bone marrow biopsy in June continue to show a STRAIGHT chromosome and my next biopsy in December, marking 3 years since the transplant, WILL also show a straight chromosome! Glory to God! If He can handle a crooked chromosome, what can’t He handle? There is NOTHING He can’t handle for you, for us, if we only trust Him, His Word and His promises!

Believe it, receive it and STAND on it!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

The Power of One

I recently heard the song, "The Power of One" by Bomshel. Thanks, ChelleBelle! I started thinking about so many things. All too often people think they can't make an impact on the world. If you believe that you are sadly MISTAKEN! Each of us has our own "little" slice we can change. It just takes ONE person doing ONE action to ONE life.



The sad thing is people get caught up in the "it won't really make a difference" line and just make a decision to do nothing. My donor, Sandra, made a decision to save my life by donating her bone marrow to me. There is NO GREATER gift than to give the gift of life to someone. Had she not done that, I wouldn't be here. If I weren't here, I wouldn't have been able to minister to so many others who have walked this dreadful road we call "cancer." I'm not saying these people couldn't have done it without me. Sure they could have! What I am saying is all too often folks give up pretty easily unless they see HOPE in someone else. I've been there. I've felt that hopelessness.

Even though I WANT you to sign up on the marrow registry, it doesn't even take something THAT big to change your little slice of the world. Just step out. Get out of the boat even if the waves are crashing around. We can't do things like this on our own. In all honesty, I'm NOTHING on my own. I've lived "on my own" and I don't ever want to do that again.

It's the power of ONE that makes me strong, even when I feel weak. When I feel blind to what God wants me to do next, He'll always shine a light on me, on the path He wants me to take, when I'm not sure. I want the power of ONE, the power of Christ, to shine forth in all I do. I've learned I won't make it on my own ability. It's SO liberating to know HE does NOT need my help in any of the situations that come my way. But, He wants me. He wants ME to be a part of His world. Being a part of HIS world means stepping out into THIS world and choosing to change a life.

Help an elderly lady to her car with her groceries when it's 106 degrees. Pay the toll fee for the car behind you. Better yet, pay for the families meal in line next to you at McDonald's. See the reaction on their face. I guarantee it, you will be the subject of every conversation they'll have that day. YOU! Just you. How cool would that be?

The Power of One! We all matter in this big world. YOU matter!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Where is your Sanctuary?

Where is it that you feel closest to God and protected by His presence? The word Sanctuary means "a place of protection." As strange as it sounds, I felt secure in the Bone Marrow Transplant Unit of St. Luke's hospital. Everyone had to scrub in and sign their life away before they were alllowed to enter. I knew the nurses wouldn't let anyone through the doors if they were sniffling, coughing or had a fever. I could actually rest and relax and not worry about getting sicker than I already was.

We should feel the same way when we are resting in Him. God's word tells us to "Be still and know that I am God," Psalm 46:10

Do you have a hard time being still? Are you constantly needing to be doing something or always on the go? Do you feel uncomfortable just "being" and not "doing?" If the answer to any of these questions is YES, then it's time to sllllooooooooooooooow down!

How can we do that? There was a time when I would literally go into my closet, turn the light off, and press play on my CD player (before Ipods) and listen to a great worship or praise song...and I would "just be" alone with God. It didn't have to be for an hour, or even a half hour...sometimes it was just for 10 minutes. Do you have TEN extra minutes? Then just BE STILL and REST in Him! He's waiting...

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

HOPE?

Good Morning!

Yes, it’s been awhile since I’ve updated.

As many of you know, I do NOT like the word “busy.” It gets thrown around way to much these days. Therefore, I try to refrain from using it whenever possible. Instead, I choose to use the word FULFILLED. Yes, life has being very fulfilling lately. So many things going on these days…wonderful things!

That is not to say that “bumps” in the road don’t come along now and again. I had surgery last week (not to worry, all is well!!), so bumps still come up. However, God’s Holy Word tells us to EXPECT trials. He never promised us a perfect life, this side of Heaven. But He did promise to be with us through it all.

Last week Saturday I had the honor of speaking at our church’s women’s conference. What a wonderful experience! It’s amazing how God can bring over 200 women together, unite them through His power and change lives! He never ceases to amaze me!

I spoke about how we can tap into HOPE…God’s hope, even in the midst of struggles. I admitted to the ladies that there was a time early in this “cancer journey” that I hated the word HOPE. To me, it conveyed a message of doubt, i.e., when someone would say to me, “I hope your test all turn out okay,” or “I hope you don’t get too sick from your chemo.” I was convinced that they really didn’t BELIEVE the tests would be okay or that I wouldn’t get too sick. If they BELIEVED it, they would have said, “Your tests are going to turn out okay and you are not going to get too sick from chemo.”

Not that long ago, in preparation for my KU workshop, I looked up synonyms for the word HOPE. The following words are what I found: ANTICIPATE, EXPECTATION, OPTIMISM, TRUST

Then I went to God’s Word and looked up the definition of HOPE. This is what was said: To desire something with confident expectation of its fulfillment.

I began to see my own perception of the word HOPE was terribly flawed.

So, how do we grow our HOPE and FAITH in the midst of trials? Stay tuned! For now, ask yourself how much HOPE you have today. If you’re feeling low on HOPE, what can you do to change that? Pray in to the Spirit and see what He says...and check back soon for more thoughts.

Monday, April 6, 2009

TGIT!!!

Hello to all!

Well, KU is not in the championship game, so here I am…writing my next entry. I was going to watch the game as long as it was “a game,” but with the lead NC has, I’m better off at the computer. Here’s to last year: ROCK CHALK! Lemony, lemony, lemony…woo! (That last part is something few will understand).

Well, a new week is upon us. Maybe it’s already been a week in which you’re ready to get through it quickly. You know, I used to be like that; always looking to Wednesday (Hump Day) and then Friday (TGIF!). I also used to say, “I can’t wait until ____.” That is, until Leukemia hit.

Before AML, my mom used to tell me, “Don’t wish your life away.” Mom was, and still is, right. We do too much of that. Looking to the next day off, the next vacation, the next whatever. Mom doesn’t have to say that to me anymore. I finally get the picture…but it took a life altering situation to make me see it.

What about TODAY? Even if it’s got some bumps along the way…it’s a day of life! Loren came up with a great acronym when I was very sick and in the hospital. I would long for home, to see family, and friends. He’d bring me back to the present with TGIT (Thank God It’s Today!) It really did help me get through tough days.

I’m probably getting a bit sappy, but that’s how it is. I don’t say, “I can’t wait,” anymore. Sure, it’s okay to be excited about something that’s coming up, but in reality we CAN wait. Waiting is good for us. It’s in the waiting that patience is tested and tried.

Joyce Meyer once said that patience is not her ability to wait; it is how she acts while she’s waiting. Ouch. I’ve fallen short many times; trying to keep a good attitude in the wait, but slipping up time and time again.

In our fast paced world nowadays, technology has given us “instant” everything. Waiting has become harder and harder to do. But it still is a fact life!

So, what can happen when we have to wait? We can get jealous of others who seem to have what we’re waiting for, have a pity party, or just plain give up. None of these are very good options.

God’s work in us is always multifaceted and can take time. To us, this can appear to be a complication. Rest assured; He’s got it all under control. Let God be God in your life, take a deep breath (really, take a deep breath right now), and join me in finding JOY in the wait. It won’t be easy, but I’ll bet if we all just give it a try…we can start a revolution!

Oh, and try this: Smile when you feel yourself getting impatient, for example, in a long checkout line. It’s hard to do, but NOT impossible! People may think you’re a little wacky, but you’ll feel better! :)

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Wowzer!

Well, I never cease to be amazed at the goodness of God. Thanks for all of your prayers regarding my seminar last night, "Spirituality and Dealing With Cancer." We had 27 folks in attendance...some in the room with me, some by ITV and 11 by Elluminate. We're already planning a "Spirituality and Coping With Cancer Part II" for June or August. Amazing!

Of course, the enemy had to interfere and the computer that fed the Elluminate and my power point, when everything went dead with ten minutes left...just when I was getting into the meat and potatoes of the "solutions" part of the program. Those of you who know me well, know I hate to leave things incomplete. So, we'll just do another program this summer and take care of it. In the meantime, please forward this site, my email; soulart02@hotmail.com, to anyone you think could use some extra help getting through some rough times of life.

I want to speak about discernment today. We all are going about life so fast paced. I'm including myself in this, as well! Often times we don't like waiting on things. Everything is "instant" in our society. In the past almost three years I have HAD to learn to be more patient...wait...rest...and know that God was in control no matter what my head was telling me. We don't develop discernment over night, it happens little by little, as we "tune into" our spirit and THE SPIRIT.

I want to understand the MIND OF GOD! Don't you? The only way I know how to do that is by studying His Holy Word. It doesn't take a lot of time...just focus on one scripture...ONE scripture a week....and you will better understand the way God thinks and in turn...YOU will think differently, too. Do you want to SEE things from God's perspective? Then take five minutes to read His words. It will change your day, your month, your life.

I will tell you this: without the Word of God...I would be DEAD! That's a strong word, I know...but it's true. God's Word got me through some of the toughest days of my life. Days when I wanted to close my eyes and surrender to the pain. Loren knows this is true because he was the one I told that to..."I'm just going to close my eyes and go." Obviously, he didn't let me! Thank you, Honey! Hebrews 11:6 got me through some of the hardest days, "...without faith, it is IMPOSSIBLE to please God." Wow. That's a huge statement. If we don't have faith, God is NOT happy with us.

I had to remember these words with every part of my being. If I gave up....I was giving up on His words....and He wouldn't like that. So, I had to KEEP THE FAITH and keep pressing in and on. You see, this ONE scripture saved me from death many days and ONE scripture can get you through, too.

Open your bible!!!!! Find ONE scripture...and cling to it in this next week...Holy Week. Let God lead you to it...and then study it and meditate on it. It will become part of you forever.

Don't feed the fear...and keep moving forward! (Thank dear Orville...for that "forward" phrase...and for watching over us from heaven!)